Wow its has literally been more than a year since I posted last. So much happens in the span of a year. Rachael has been traveling all over the world telling people how much Jesus loves them and I am in my second year of medical school. Its a surreal feeling to pull myself out of the present for a moment and survey the path that God has brought lead us down. So many answered prayers and so many new ones to pray. God has answered my prayers abundantly for friendship, for christian community in medical school. Rachael left last January and I realized I had not sought many relationships within my class and I had a crash course in the importance of surrounding yourself with people who care about you and loving people right back. My dad has a new job which has been a prayer for several years. And despite the fact that I often complain, something I am honestly trying to work on - Lord continue to break me of this tendency, I am just as often awed, humbled and grateful for where I am. Medical school is not what I thought it would be, but then again I am not sure what I expected. I am reminded by little things and interactions with people of my heart for entering into this field. Last week I had the privilege of sitting with a patient for an extended amount of time and listening while she processed through a very traumatic event in her life that was crippling her with grief. To my astonishment she had not yet spoken about it in depth with anyone else. This is the great privilege I am given, even more so as a student when I have the luxury of time with each person. May I be continually humbled Lord and please God teach me on a regular basis the great depth of your love for people. I have learned that while I may pray for people internally it is rare that I have the courage to let them know I am praying or to ask to pray with them. Rachael gets back in two weeks. I cannot wait to squish her face and to not let go! Its going to be a beautiful messy re-adjustment and I cannot wait. I am reading ELizabeth Elliot right now and what I am constantly reminded of is to wait, be patient and trust the Lord in all aspects of my life. Trust Jesus with medical school, with my dads new job, with my friends heartbreak, with my hopes and dreams for the future and my worries about the present, to say with my thoughts and my choices that no matter what I feel- I know, and choose to act, on the fact that our God is good, faithful, loving, he cares about the details and desires that his children conform more and more to the image of his son...This concludes the random rambles for the day. Perhaps I will get in the habit of actually posting again. I really need to be studying as per usual.
